Era obsedată că este grasă, mânca un măr pe zi și ajunsese la 33 de kilograme. Cum arăta tânara când se afla la câteva săptămâni de moarte

O patinatoare de numai 21 de ani a fost la săptămâni de moarte după ce a ajuns la numai 33 de kilograme din cauza regimului strict pe care îl tinea.

 

? Today I celebrate 1 year into recovery from anorexia nervosa ? . Exactly a year ago today is the day I FINALLY decided to commit to recovery. Weeks & even months before this I was pretending I was in recovery.. but I was still actively using anorexic behaviors. My behaviors worsened as the days went on.. I kept decreasing my calories lower & lower each day.. it got to the point where 300 calories became “too much” & I’d only have ONE APPLE a day (if I ate) & some days I wouldn’t eat AT ALL, I’d just “eat” 3 pieces of GUM, which was only 15 CALORIES FOR AN ENTIRE DAY. I was lying to everyone, telling them I was trying to recover, but I felt like I couldn’t stop. I was throwing away all of my food, hiding my food, & lying that I was eating everything on my meal plan. I felt like I needed to become “sicker” before I could recover.. ? . It came to the point where I’d either die or commit to recovery. I was told that I might not live another month if I kept up my behaviors. If I didn’t make the decision to start TRUE recovery 1 year ago, I wouldn’t be alive right now. Choosing recovery is the best decision I could of ever made! Even though I’ve had a mini relapse & many bumps in the road throughout this process, I’ve came A LONG way since the broken girl on the left. I’m so proud of myself for battling through this disease, even though it’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’ve survived a whole year & I plan to keep fighting every single day for the rest of my life!! ?✨

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La vârsta de 16 ani, Nicole Rossi din Michigan, a început să devină mai conștientă de ceea ce mâncă crezând că alimentele "sănătoase" o vor ajuta să se antreneze.

Cu toate acestea ea a ajuns rapid să sufere de anorexie. Fata mesteca gumă pentru și își păcălea foamea cu un singur măr pe zi săptămâni la rând. 

Rossi, care în cele din urmă a devenit prea fragilă pentru a mai patina, povestește: "Am simțit că mor, mă simțeam ca un zombie și nu aveam personalitate, tot ce îmi pasa era să pierd cât mai multe kilograme și să mănânc cât mai puține calorii posibile.”

 

Dear body, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for hurting you so badly. I’m sorry for not feeding you. I’m sorry for ignoring your hunger cues when you so desperately needed nourishment. I’m sorry for continuing to starve you when you were lightheaded, shaky, dizzy, freezing, weak, & miserable. I’m sorry for continuing to exercise when you were too weak & screaming at me to stop. I’m sorry for taking laxatives & causing you so much pain that you’d be left curled up on the bathroom floor. I’m sorry for causing you to faint/black out multiple times a day. I’m sorry for causing your body to ache so badly that you couldn’t even stand up in the shower or walk up stairs anymore. I’m sorry for causing your hair to fall out. I’m sorry for damaging your organs. I’m sorry for causing your muscles to waste away. I’m sorry for slowly killing you. I’m sorry for relapsing & putting you through torture again. I’m sorry for all the pain & misery I’ve caused you, you didn’t deserve any of it. Thank you for keeping me alive when I was on the verge of death. Thank you for never giving up on me, even though I gave up on you. You are amazing, strong, & worthy of life. ✨ . This was me 1 year ago.. I was broken, dying, & abusing my body. I wish I could go back in time & erase all of the pain & torture I put my body through, but I am stronger for it today. I promise to take care of my body from now on.. I owe myself that much. ?

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Într-un final tânăra a fost a fost spitalizată iar medicii au avertizat-o că dacă nu se oprește din acest stil de viață, va muri curând. 

Acum tânăra studiază pentru a deveni psiholog si îi încurajeaza pe alții care trec prin ce a trecut și ea și suferă de anorexie sa vorbească despre această problemă cu adevarat gravă. Tânăra învinovățește patinajul pentru boală. „Patinajul a fost ceea ce a dus la anorexie și mi-a înrăutățit gândurile. La inceput  mi-am schimbat obiceiurile alimentare pentru a ifi sănătoasă dar asta m-a făcut să ajung în punctul în care nu mai puteam nici măcar sa mai patinez”

Sursă: Daily Mail